Man I don't know how many times I've told myself that I want to stop "Sucking" or needing to find the suck button so I can turn it off with my art. I believe the hardest thing for me to do is to fight. To continue to fight my lack of self discipline or self control when doing anything, including art. Life is always a fight, a fight to improve a fight to survive. I mean honestly I'm a little tired of it.

I'm not depressed or sad or anything, maybe I'm just outright lazy and realize that fighting for anything isn't easy and I want it to be. Even if it's a passion or a hobby. Sure there must be some sort of initial drive there that's why we have an interest in it. One of my friends is close to completing a dream of hers, Artgerm was 34 when his work was featured in the Fusion Junction 3 book and I'm just 30.

I still have a ways to go before getting any kind of success, but I need to fight for it day by day, inch by inch. I seen it's those people who do that who become successful. They find something they like and go for it and I feel that I'm missing that will and drive.  I want to be one of those people. I know I fight a day, and give up the next, but I want to continue to have that habit of standing up everyday and every time I fall down again or feel unmotivated. Frankly that's been happening a lot recently since losing my job last year.

Here's hoping I don't beat myself into submission, or maybe that's what it will take to be counted among those whom I look up to. In any case, those drawings ain't gonna get done by themselves!

ROUND 1!

FIGHT!!